Confessionals (Episode 4)

[Baylor Wilson]

So at the last tribal, Sierra went home with almost every vote. H O W E V E R, one stray vote was cast for Silas. And that person is apparently phenomenal with photoshop because bitch put the rest of us to SHAME. So now, Silas is kind of freaking out a little bit. He's playing it off by joking about it, but I can tell he really wants to figure out who the fuck voted for him. He's started narrowing it down, but I genuinely have no idea who it could be. Seems kind of random and silly to cast that vote, but hey that's what this game is about: Stupid people making stupid decisions for the entertainment of others.

This week, we also have a LIVE CHALLENGE, which is so exciting. I love mowing down the other tribe in real time instead of 24 hours at a time. Tragically, though, I will be at work tomorrow night and I will not be able to see the challenge. I am hoping and praying SO HARD for my tribe, and if they fuck this up I will kill all of them. So we'll see what happens

[Baylor Wilson]

THESE FUCKWITS ARE PLANNING ON VOTING ME OUT BECAUSE I MISSED ONE FUCKING LIVE CHALLENGE. IT WAS A LIVE CHALLENGE AND I TOLD THEM IN ADVANCE THAT I WOULDN'T FUCKING BE THERE, WHAT NUMBSKULLS! I AM SO FIRED UP RIGHT NOW I COULD ~SCREAM~! SO NOW IT'S TIME TO TALK TO EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHER ON THIS GODFORSAKEN TRIBE AND GET TO THE BOTTOM OF THIS BULLSHIT. I HAVE PERFORMED REALLY FUCKING WELL IN CHALLENGES LEADING UP TO THIS AND I'M ACTIVE SOCIALLY. TO SAY THAT I DESERVE TO GO BASED ON ONE LIVE CHALLENGE IS FUCKING LUNACY. I HOPE THESE BITCHES GET TROUNCED BY LA BARBERA AT THIS POINT.

[Baylor Wilson]

Aras how can you like and dislike this post simultaneously? GURL WHUT?!?

So anyways, I'm going to bring this back to the top from before my rant. As I said, everyone seems to be targeting me based on the fact that I missed the live challenge. Honestly, I think it's a total load of rubbish. I warned everyone that I had work during the live challenge and it's not like I can just skip going to work for this challenge. I truly would have loved to be there, I really would have, but it's not feasible. And if I get sent home because of this, then I truly don't think this is my fault. The game of Survivor has a lot to do with luck sometimes, and unfortunately I'm spinning the Shit Roulette right now. That's why I screamed in confessional last night, I was very very angry about it. I've become more rational and calm now, but I'm still fighting for my life with every breath I take.

Last night when I found out that we had lost, I was obviously very sad about it. You never want to see your tribe lose unless you're a crazy person like Dolly who enjoys tribal council (SHE ACTUALLY SAID THAT WTF!). Nearly immediately afterwards, I went and talked to Teresa, who basically just told me straight up that a bunch of people were voting to me. She said that it was according to Abi and Alina that I was pretty much a goner. That is the point at which I logged into this board and posted that beautiful and massive tantrum in all caps (<3).

[Baylor Wilson]

Teresa also told me that she was planning on voting Edgardo based on the fact that he's really quite stupid. I wasn't at the challenge so I don't know, but the rumor is that he fucked up pretty much all his questions and blamed it on AIM. On one hand, I'm willing to give him leeway because AIM is a twat like 90% of the time. However, with my back against the wall he's my next logical target. Everyone else participated in the challenge except for me, Dolly, and Silas, and if I target either of them for the same reasons I'm being targeted it would probably just get everyone to vote me out.

So the pitch I'm currently going with is that I've played hard and fought hard in the early challenges of this game. For every challenge I've contributed where I was needed and worked damn hard. Unfortunately, I missed one challenge, but can they blame me for having a job to make my cash money?!? I'm a poor aspiring country singer I need to keep myself alive!

That's the case I'm trying to make to my fellow players. It looks like Teresa is voting Ed and Dolly is willing to if I can cobble together votes to stay. Right now, I'm trying to work on as many people as humanly possible. One possible strategy I employed was actually turning Alina on Teresa since T-Bird told me that Alina was one of the ones bringing my name up. However, I talked to Alina about it a bit and my read of the situation was that Alina was going to confront her anonymous aggressor about it. And if they compared notes, they'd find that I had twisted Teresa's words to get Alina worked up, which would honestly put a bigger target on my back. I really did want to stir the pot, but I had to made the executive decision that that move would not have done anything positive for my game.

Unfortunately, for the most part these other tribe members aren't really around to be talking strategy with. I'm going to hope that some of these people log in before 9 PM so I can give them my last plea for my safety. I'll diligently be watching AIM if I have to. Right now, I honestly feel like a beggar walking about the city of Greco asking for spare change. Is it desperate? Yeah. Is it kind of pathetic? Sure, kind of. But at the end of the day I do NOT want to pack my bags and go just yet so I will be dragged out of this game with my claws in somebody's skin. It really does look like Baylor is practically a goner, but I refuse to give up until the votes are cast.