Hey it's Austin's Confessional

[Austin Carty]

Or maybe it won't be, if I got trolled out in last place. -_- Longer update coming soon.

[adamgentry]

My dreams were just crushed, I wanted to read some juicy gossip

[Austin Carty]

In which I discuss alliances, me getting votes, and the concept of trolling out in last place.

[Austin Carty]

FINAL 23

Doing a text confessional, cause I enjoy mixing things up. Anywho...

Vytas went home, as planned, 10-2. I knew Brian was voting for me, he showed me his vote beforehand and all that jazz. My only complaint was that his vote was basic af - if he's gonna vote for me every round, at LEAST have some creativity. Like, pink font and just my name? Bitch please, you showed me the vote you made for Kass for Vytas, that actually looked cool. And Vytas didn't even MAKE a parchment. C'mon, people - have some fun with it, its friggen AS for Christ's sake. At least everyone side's Vytas actually made a parchment, though, which is nice to see.

Anyway, so I'm asleep when the challenge happens, because my sleep cycle just likes to fuck with me, and I get on at 1. I see that Brian volunteered to be booted, this entire TC nonsense, and I'm like - OK, get on AIM, try and figure shit out. And apparently, within the two hours between Brian and volunteering and me getting on, the vote had shifted to a unanimous blindside of Lex,since Brian's more active and we know where his head's at.

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These people are effin' lunatics. Everyone's a mile a minute, haha. I agree with the decision - in part because Brian showed last time that, even if he enjoys writing my name down for reasons of questionable legitimacy, he has my back. Lex hasn't been talking to everybody - and I like the dude, hope we win the challenge so he stays, but he's gotta go if we don't.

[Austin Carty]

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention. I'm INCREDIBLY easily amused, so I messaged Alina like, OMG do you know who Marcus is voting for? And she's like, no why. And I said, well, he's idoling, Kass is giving him the idol. And IMMEDIATELY believes it, and starts panicking and asking me what to do. I let her stir for a moment, then copped to it, and she was so angry, I couldn't stop myself from crackin' up.

It's actually pretty cool that immediately believed me - so I know there is a deep level of trust in this partnership. Even if I enjoy screwing with her head a bunch.

[Austin Carty]

FINAL 22

Sorry bout the late-ish confessional. It's mostly cuz - well, I REALLY don't have anything to talk about. Like, the challenge's were pretty meh, at least for me - I didn't do a ton for the writing one, because other people wanted to head the ship there, so I just did a bit of minor editing and cleanup. The other one they literally random.orged, which is whatevs - Alina mentioned I as poisoned the night of results, but as it turns out it was super poison, so me changing anything wouldn't have done anything. Besides, explaining how, and more importantly WHERE I got that tidbit, and going through with the hassle of changing it, wasn't worth any benefit I would've gotten. We won, finally immune for a vote, got to relax away from AIM for a bit, haha.

I feel like I'm just kinda floating along at the moment. I don't think I'm in any danger anytime soon - the only real worry is Brian's constant votes for me. I'm active enough that I think a few people would go before me, and I have this REALLY WEIRD six person thing going on. I've been talking to people privately about it, and everyone's like "yeah idk what's going on with that either." Like, OK people, am I just being misled or are we all just a bunch of dumbasses who can't communicate? I mean, I certainly am, but I expect better from the rest.

So my game right now isn't so much power alliance, strongarming away - I mean it kinda is, I guess, but that seems more like a loose conglomeration than any sort of "alliance," or maybe its alliance not in name? I'm not sure - I'm just trying to keep decent relations with as many people as possible. Cliched, but tried and true - me taking the reigns now would just lose make my UTR appeal, haha. This game hasn't been super super active - and maybe that's partly me, since because a lot of us are banking on older relationships, myself included, and not getting up to the usual one on one chit chat. Which is kinda funny, in retrospect, cause I've never played with Crystal, Charlie, or PG (as far as I know, anyway) before this game, and that's half of that six.

That's all I got to really talk about, to be honest. Everyone's been friendly - have had good talks with Charlie and PG lately especially, but everyone's been pretty good about attempting even small one-on-ones, except Robb. Who I want out next round, to be quite frank - Yul and LJ might not be around as much as him, but A. I know he's a major ORG veteran B. we don't gel overly much and C. some of the complaining's been gettin' to me, a little bit anyway. It's probs tongue in cheek, but seeing him make a fuss about challenge results, and the challenge stuff - maybe I'm being weird, rubbed me the wrong way a little.

But that's just me spitballin'. No real clue what's gonna go down in the future of the game, it's really loosey goosey. The only thing I can say for sure is, I will never watch any of those ten goddamn crime movies again.

[Austin Carty]

FINAL 21

We WON something? That wasn't luck based? WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Our misfit tribe can survive!

I'll talk about stuffz later, when there's more to say. Not a ton happenin' outside the challenge, after all.

[Austin Carty]

Round 20

So, stuff has been happening, and the game seems to actually be moving. Which is a nice change of pace for the longest time it didn’t seem like much of anything was going on, besides some side talks, since everyone’s so paranoid as being targeted as a power player or whatever.

Anyway, let’s try to do this kinda sorta chronologically.

The other night, all of the six people from that loose alliance were on, so I went fuck it, told each of them individually that “hey, your still down? cool I’m gonna make a groupchat.” and made one. Decent, not great, flow in there, but it's something. We haven’t really talked much about the vote in there, but I wanted SOMETHING to allay my concerns, and hopefully others.

Coach, however, who was helping me spread the word about the chat, accidentally messaged “Austin wants to make a groupchat” to Brian when he meant to send it to PG. I just played it off to Brian like he wanted a 3 person thing, and the next day we got Brian to make the groupchat, which hopefully alleviated his concerns a bit.

Segue’s are neat. Brian comes in with an idol in the game groupchat, and gives it to PG. I talk to him about it, look at the image (created 14 hours ago at the time) he says he actually found it for a bit, then admits it's a fake. And that Frank also made a fake. Good to know!

Anyway, we win the challenge - I think I pissed Ed off when I fucked up, I got a bunch of ellipses as responses for a bit, I can see the bitching in his confessional now - and now I’m immune. And now, crazy vote shenanigans are happening. Which, I’ll write about when they settle down, because I just realized its still hurting my head. Adios, folks!

[Austin Carty]

I am so pissed at Brian right now, you have no idea. Before I get on to that, lets set the stage.

Going into the vote, I thought it would be a simple vote for Robb, maybe a few people would push for Yul since he’s not around a bunch either. Then Brian started going around pushing for Charlie, cause he got this idea in his head that the other side was eliminating people close to him and Kass, so he’d eliminate someone close to Alina, who he perceived as HBIC over there. I mean, I wasn’t all for it, since Charlie was in my 6, but I was considering it because he doesn’t talk to me a ton and I don’t entirely know where his head's at.

Well, Brian then comes to me and is like, ok its done, I have six votes: us, Kass, Yul, LJ, and Robb. A little wary, since Brian’s not above going himself, I went to go talk to LJ and Robb myself, and what do you know, they actually want Brian out. I tried to plant seeds over the course of the night with everyone who was on that eliminating Brian might not be the best idea, because I do (or rather, did) trust him to work with me moving forward - getting rid of Charlie might be the smarter idea. But Coach and PG weren’t on, so ultimately I didn’t want to try and push the issue either way without my alliance’s consent, so if they were in a similar head space as me, worried about trusting Charlie in a swap scenario.

So, I get on today, a little late since I’m trying to be a tad under the radar and I’m immune anyway, so I don’t think everything can explode in my face. Anyway, I talk to people, word is everyone wants Brian, which I’m sad about cause I tried to help the guy, but if that's what they want, not much I can do about it. But because Brian is my friend, I decide it’d be a dick move to blindside him, when he’s so confident Charlie’s going.

So I tell him, he seems to take it well, then he decides he wants to blow it up in the chat. I kinda expected that, given how he’s been playing, but I asked him specifically not to link it to me, because I was trying to be nice to him outside the context of the game, which I kinda wanted to succeed in, y’know?

Then he says “Austin told me.” And shows a screencap. WHAT THE FUCK MAN? Look, I get it, he’s trying to be memorable and trolly, whatever, that’s fine. But I actually care about this game, I want to at least try and do well in it, but I decided to step back from “gameplay strategy gameplay” for a second because I consider him a friend. And he decides to willy nilly fuck me over, when, more than ANYONE else, I had his back? He can fuck the right off, if that's the case.

It’s not even that this hurts my game - which, I mean it does, but I hope not overly so. I had run damage control with Charlie earlier, thankfully, giving him a heads up Brian was targeting him when I was sure he was staying (not sure if that was transparent or not, I think it might’ve been.) And I don’t think the others care that much, although it’ll certainly be something in the back of their mind the next few votes, as much as I play it off. That’s not the issue, though.

The issue is, he accused me of just telling him that, when it wasn’t the case, so I could laugh and watch him self-destruct. And I think thats the worst part - that he’d think that of me, when I was trying to be nice and help him out as a friend. It hurts to hear someone say that, and its infuriating to have someone act against you for trying to help them. It's like if I helped an old lady across the street, and then when we crossed she tazered me and called the police, saying I was trying to rob her. And then I find out the old lady is my grandmother.

I'll get over it, I know I will, but right now I'm just mad and hurt. But hey, I guess there’s a bit of truth to what ol’ Silas said, eh?

[Austin Carty]

(Vidcaps STILL won’t let me get Austin confessional pictures, so here you go. Random google image Austin. Anything to break up these walls of text, since my video’s keep coming out kinda lethargic - I swear if I hear myself say Um.... one more time imma go mad.)

FINAL 18

OK, so I actually have a bunch to talk about this round. After Brian and Teresa got the boot(s) we swapped tribes. And my tribe was myself, Kass, Charlie, Alina, JFP, and Silas. And at the surface, I felt pretty good, but there were a few things I was worried about.

First of all, Kass and Charlie. I always felt like there were on the outs of the alliance on old La Barbera, and the two barely talk to me. Which. since we’re SUPPOSED to be aligned, is definitely a red flag, instinctually. On top of that, at a point I was pushing for Charlie to go last round. It was kinda like they were both in the 6, but they weren’t really in the core four of people in that six. Granted, Kass has been slowly gaining traction in this game (more on that later) what with organizing us for the quiz challenge and everything, and we did have a quick strategy sesh on AIM (that Jeremy was privy to) but ultimately I didn’t feel safe with them on old La Barbera, and now likewise on Greco.

Also, there’s Alina. Alina’s awesome, love the girl, etc. but the issue is everyone knows that. So, with the two of us on the same tribe, part of me felt like the other four could come together, and suddenly we’re on the outs. Luckily enough, we seem good. Unless that’s actually what's happening, in which case book me for JFP’s upcoming, star-studded career in theatre. He’ll have dozens of theatre Oscars, or whatever the fuck they’re called.

However, within five minutes of becoming a tribe, Kass is coming to me telling me Old La Barb needs to stick together, and actually, y’know, TALKING to me. Weird. Alina also comes to me, saying she’ll do whatever I want with the vote, just keep her safe. Silas and JFP were on the outs on old Greco, and she’s worried they’d throw her under the bus. I go to Kass with this and she’s like, OK, we’ll use her vote then.

However, she had this harebrained idea that Alina is too shady to trust with a direct vote. So, INSTEAD of going the straightforward path, she decides that, when Alina says she wanted Silas (which was just a ploy to get two votes on him, more on that LATER, I promise) she’s like, ok, OBVIOUSLY we need to vote for JFP. In case of an idol. Which EVERYONE is going crazy trying to figure out. BRILLIANT.

Ultimately, I had a “talk” with Alina, and “convinced” her she instead wanted Frank, putting Kass and Charlie’s votes on Silas. Whatever, I’m not voting with them. Why, you ask? Well, lemme get into that.

Shortly after the tribes are formed, JFP hits me up and is like yo, we gotta work together. I’m not opposed to this, and to try and build a bit of a rapport I tell him I know about his fake idol. Shortly afterwards, he adds me to a chat with him, Alina, and Alex.

...

Soooooooooo JFP’s not gotten much better at the game, it seems. Which, y’know, is actually kinda ideal, since it makes him an awesome shield, and not really much of a threat long-term. Me and Alina were talking about it, and it’s kinda easy to figure out what he wants to hear. I adore the dude, but it was kinda easy to get into his inner circle. Granted, we’re friends, but still.

Anyway, we’re talking about the vote in there. We can pretty much swing the vote on Silas, Charlie, or Kass. I veto Silas pretty early on, for a multitude of reasons. Why part of me thought booting him would help ease tensions with old La Barb a bit after I boot Kass or Charlie later on, ultimately he’s a number and a floater, and not a direct threat to my game. That nearly won him the game last time, so I am wary to an extent, but that game was crazy as fuck.

So it was between Kass/Charlie, and I was kind of leaning Charlie at the time, but not strongly so. We decide to leave it to a coin flip, it lands tails, goes Charlie, and we go to bed with the vote on Charlie.

Thing is, I log on today and Kass hits me up, reconfirming about the vote. Which, y’know, got me thinking. Charlie has barely talked to me on the new tribe, and we’ve barely talked about the vote. He has no real power. If I take him out, Kass still has a lot of sway over certain people, and can blow up my game. And she’s slowly been getting more active, talking to me in more depth about the vote, arguing for certain points. To be it frankly, she’s more invested, more active, and a bigger threat.
She said it herself when we were discussing her idea to boot Frank - we can't worry about them being our friends, gotta do whats best for our game.

So I talk to people privately and in the chat, and now the vote’s on her. It’s kinda eerie how much power me and Alina currently have here - we should’ve been outed as a power duo, but because the two sides are relying on us to relay information, and banking on us being the one to turn the tide, we’ve eased into the middle. In an incredible turn of events, somehow I’ve gone from what I felt was a false power seat, to a real one. I’m in the middle, and could flip the vote either way, since me and Alina are in lockstep.

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Guys, this is me. I STILL DON’T KNOW WHERE MINNESOTA IS! Like, provided I’m not delusional, which, y’know - see Greece and compare - I actually feel somewhat comfortable. I’m gonna keep up with JFP and Alina, since our three is what’s keeping me safe, but I’m fairly confident in our sorta misfit alliance.

Kass should go 4-2 tonight over Silas, and maybe people will think I outright flipped to avoid rocks or whatever. Not the case at all, but maybe, just maybe, they’ll underestimate me. I’ll try to straighten things out with the four, maybe say those three are on the outs of Old Greco or something - god willing that’d work. Merge is gonna be confusing as fuck, and dependent on how the other TC’s go, but I’m doing what I can to prepare for the implosion.

[Austin Carty]

FINAL 16

I'll confess when there's more to talk about, but I wanted to leave a note here for Kass. Also, I hope this helps explain my thinking to everyone as to why I ultimately decided to put the vote on her.

Kass, as a person, you know I adore you. I'm deeply sorry that voting you out hurt you as much as it did. If this doesn't work out, your free to call me a schmuck whenever you deem fit. I know you want more of an explanation, and these things are hard to explain in one on one convos. You said it yourself when talking about JFP - being friends doesn't matter at the end of the day, and if your willing to cut his throat, I gotta adopt the same approach. Fire vs. fire and all that. I know you think JFP and Alina are using me, but I don't see it that way - I think both of them want to work with me until late-game, if not necessarily go to FTC with me. If I'm wrong, so be it - it's a game, after all. And I don't enjoy taking anyone's fun out of the game - I remember how hurt I was when Brian blew me up in at least seemingly a malignant gesture.

I do have some difficulties balancing the fact that these are friends, but friends I need to vote out to win the game. If I had been on and you asked me, I would've told you - it didn't need to be a blindside, I was just out when you messaged me, and didn't get back til post results. I could've played this as simply La Barbera vs. Greco, but I don't think that was a winning path, regardless of how far you wanted to take me. I need to shake things up if I want to win, and this is one of the preliminary steps. If your still mad when you read this, I get it - but ultimately I made the move that I feel most comfortable making, keeping people in the game that I think will have my back for as long as I need it.

There's not much more I can say - I just hope this doesn't completely ruin things, y'know? And I felt the need to get this off my chest, and since a confessionals for exactly that, may as well.

[Austin Carty]

Beyonce is pretty legit, ngl.

[Austin Carty]

My new idol. (Other than Beyonce obvi.)

[Austin Carty]

Not a ton is happening to talk about, at least compared to last time. The game is definitely afoot, and people are actually talking now - which is a ton of fun, in my opinion.

We spent a bit discussing the vote tonight. Charlie has been lobbying hard to stay, and there was some discussion about whether we should do Silas or Charlie. And I thought about it a bit as well - depending on when we merge, challenge strength could definitely be an asset. If we only have one more TC, it doesn't particularly matter who keep - whoever's left will go regardless. But if we have more than one, keeping Charlie around could keep some cannon fodder so me, Alina, and Frank don't have to eat at each other. If there's no more, or we win the next immunity AND vote off Charlie, that's the best of both worlds - because Silas, based on games past, is a loyal player. And since we saved him, there is a sense that he'd be gracious - granted, I'm trying to make sure no one thinks that he "owes" us anything, that could lead to bad things.

Ultimately, if we make it to merge Charlie's against us, Silas most likely isn't. Charlie's a sly player, and could make it very deep if we let him into a merge situation, and be a definite threat. Silas, to an extent, is a threat in that he is smart, and he is under the radar, but he's also not nearly as active, and isn't able to flip things as easy as Charlie. We need to play a winning game - hedging our bets on someone we know is a threat is too risky. Charlie's a threat, and Charlie's a target because of the last vote - provided me and Alina keep both of their heads on straight, he should go 4-1. I won't rule out a 3-2 blindside of either me or Alina - Charlie's persuasive and has sway over JFP because of their past relationship. I just gotta make him feel comfortable and make sure he knows we're with him for the long haul. If Charlie gets his hooks in him and starts talking about me and Alina as an unbreakable duo, things could get very bad, very fast.

[Austin Carty]

Charlie completely believes me and Alina. He even wants to make a chat.

...

This feels too ruthless. We've been really hyping up me/him/Alina voting Silas and roping in JFP as a fourth. Yeah, it might be smarter to cut him here, but...

Ugh, I feel like I'm being torn at both sides. Blindsiding him this hard, when he's in the minority, doesn't feel right. Maybe we should vote Silas? It's not smart, maybe I'm playing with my heart too much, but now I'm undecided. I was even working on my vote, but I stopped to write this. Goddamnit.