Welcome!

[Jaclyn Schultz]

I <3 U

[Alina Wilson]

Well, considering I only have five hours to do this I'll write out a semi-quick confessional. I'm too lazy to go too in depth though. I have TV shows to watch.

So, basically, last round, everyone had their votes in for Marcus the Mime(he talks about as much as one, really) but, as expected, we totally trounced them in the challenge, which was this...creative challenge. Gross. Frankly, I'm too good to put much effort into those, so I kind of...did very little. I mean, I did SOME stuff here and there, but let's be real, it was barely anything. The rest of the tribe should just do all the work for me while I sunbathe and relax on the beach.

Winning again was pretty great, especially after some people on their side seemed pretty darn confident they won. Ha, jokes on you. And, since we already had to CAST OUR VOTES BEFORE THE CHALLENGE, Lex immediately got the boot. Which sucked, you know, I like Lex, but I can't say I'm entirely surprised, since sometimes in games his activity can be a bit sporadic. The Bermuda slaughter so far, though...lol. Only myself, Ed, Kelly and Charlie left.

Me/Ed/Kelly have sort of an unspoken thing on this tribe, I think. We need to start a group chat but Kelly's been away at this wedding and blah blah...so, kind of hard. But she comes to me a lot for help like in challenges/etc so I think I'm at least in good with her? So that's cool, since I like Kelly a ton and would like her around for a while.

In other news, after Lex left, the challenge gets posted, and it's “PICK YOUR POISON!” Oh joy, I am so excited. [/sarcasm] This challenge has been a staple of Warriors for...some reason I don't really understand. It's basically just luck. Both tribes just random.orged what they were going to do. I guess the hosts decided to use this challenge because they felt so bad for Team Jeremy, and, knowing that we would just trounce them again in whatever other challenges they had up their sleeves, decided to use this so that it wouldn't be a complete ulonging. The only thing those dorks can beat us at is luck, let's be real.

The organization for our side of the challenge was a mess. Abi wanted us to random.org what order we'd go in, and the order would be, like, what potions we used...and she kept forgetting people. And then, when we told her who she forgot, she ended up removing someone else. It continued like that for what felt like half an hour. I don't understand why we couldn't just...choose what to do on our own. But I digress.

Anyway, we lost because random.org NEVER works out for me in these games. Trust me, I've tried more than I'd like to admit. It also won't help me open that fucking locked door. I'll get it eventually. ...Totally. I will. For sure. Trust me. ...okay maybe I won't. BUT WHATEVER. It's probably a good thing since, as Austin said, I give idols out to people like they're coupons. People think EDGARDO is bad with that...ha. They're in for a shock.

Now, see, in the challenge, along with all the potions, there were these clear potions, which...it wasn't stated what they did. Sierra decided to go pour hers all over Kass on the other team, where I got the other team's. I honestly thought people would use it on themselves, so I'm a little shocked, but whatever. It turns out, if you lost the challenge and got a clear potion on you?

Immunity, bitches!

We lost, and I got the clear potion, so...I pretty much only expand my record for the most immunity wins in Warriors history. Yeah, I'm pretty cool. I'm at 6 now. I don't even have to put in effort, or even know immunity is at stake – I get it anyways. The immunity necklace knows its rightful place, and that's around my neck. So I'm pretty much guaranteed top 21 now! I mean, I was probably safe anyways, but it doesn't hurt. I was busy last night and couldn't be bothered sending out dozens of Ims anyways. But it did let me know who was actually interested in talking to me about the vote and who wasn't.

Baylor, Marcus, Teresa, and Silas all fall into that last category. Though, Silas at least messaged me, but I have no idea what he was trying to do. I can't tell if he wanted to bring up vote talk and was too shy and intimidated by my beauty to do it, or what. I kind of just made it into a joke and kept bringing up the most inane stuff I could to see if he'd ever bring up the vote to me. He didn't. What a shame.

And Marcus...well, Marcus has the social skills of a rock. He instigates conversations with NO ONE. EVER. It's annoying. Like, that's my thing. I'm supposed to be the one everyone just clamors to to start conversations with. You're stealing my gig, man. Sigh. I'm too lazy to do it half the time, but at least I do it sometimes. Marcus just...doesn't. How did this guy make merge last time, again? Houdini indeed. He clearly has SOME kind of magic powers, because otherwise it just doesn't make sense.

Baylor I know dislikes me, but she's on my radar to get out of here soon. Teresa...I can't tell if she's avoiding me or if she's just like that with everyone, but she's on Abi's list of “has to die next” and at this point, Abi's the queen of the tribe. I pretty much told her allllll the friends Kass has in this game, and I kind of just...I guess inadvertantly started an army. It's pretty great. I was crazy worried about Kass going into this, but now I have a whole rebel army being spearheaded by Abi to just take everyone Kass gets along with out of the game. It's amazing.

Right now, Abi is leading a crusade to get Sierra out...which, you know, makes sense, since Abi HATES Sierra. I'm fine with her at this point, but she's been very inactive and I know playing with her can be...difficult, so I'm fine with that. Plus the fact she has quite a few friends, it's good to snipe her out of here before her cult gets ahold of her and drags her to the end. That's my spot in the end. I want it. So...anyone who has a good shot of somehow making it, however it may be...kind of has to go bye-bye. That's why I want Kass gone so bad. She has a HUGE shot of making the end with all her buddies if she plays it right.

When it comes down to it, my strategy is pretty similar as it usually is. I like to manipulate people into pushing for things for me...and if that doesn't work, I just give up and let them call the shots. I don't like pushing for things over people or pissing people off. It's stupid, when you can just go with the flow. I'm just here to sit here and look pretty.

Abi wants to throw the next few challenges and ditch Teresa>Baylor>Marcus in that order...which I disagree with, but Abi is CONVINCED that she can “control Baylor” over Kass, which is...one of the most ridiculous things ever. Baylor and Kass are like, best friends for life and pregame together every Sunday. THEY DID IT IN WARRIORS 1, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. Sigh. But, as I've said, if I can't convince her, I'll just go with it. I think I'm in an average position on this team, and since apparently people brought up Kelly's name for the boot along with Sierra, this is good. My name shouldn't be in circulation, and as long as it stays that way...I'm good. Provided absolute boneheaded stupidity doesn't go down, I think I'm in it until a swap or some kind of switch-up.

Also, I think Abi ignored the part where I said Kelly was a friend of Kass's too, but that's fine, since I'm close with Kelly and like her. Her being out of the targeting line = good! Marcus is like the equivalent of Purple Kelly on our team, and Teresa and Baylor make no effort to instigate conversations and only bother when I do it. So, frankly, I won't miss either of those two. I like Teresa, but she's starting conversations with people who aren't me...and I don't want that. If you don't like me enough to say hi every once and a while...I mean...you kind of have to take a hike.

Whatever. Tonight, Sierra goes, and after that, we lay down the plans for Teresa and Baylor to follow. I want to switch up the order and get Baylor out first, but I'm not sure how well that'll fly. We'll see. I'll push, but not too hard. The best way to get people to do things for you is to make them think it's their idea to begin with. No one likes listening to other people. I don't either, but I can deal with it if it gets me far. And...hopefully, that ends up happening. I can see it.

[Alina Wilson]

And here we are again. I'll be honest, I'm not in the best mood to produce a quality confessional but I guess I'll try.

So, last time, on Survivor Warriors, Sierra got the boot. Now, I actually felt kind of bad for her, since she blocked everyone and has now declared that she's quitting ORGs. See, I don't have anything against Sierra – I mean, I used to, in prior games, but I'm cool with her now. And she told me she loved me and stuff on her way out. I felt guilty for just...abandoning her to the wolves, but at the same time, it was pretty much destiny. I couldn't do much to avert that. I feel bad, but she's gone, and probably forever, at that, so...seeya, Sierra. RIP.

After she leaves, we get to this “live”(and I use this term very, very loosely) challenge, at it's heart, it would be a quiz show where one person from each tribe would step up, and then whoever wins eliminates someone on the other team. Simple, right? Apparently not! It took ages for either team(especially ours) to elect someone to go, and the other team mostly trounced us, which was...depressing. Seriously, this isn't even hyperbole, but I was doing REALLY well with answers – if it was just me against their tribe, I think I would have won it for us singlehandedly. Sigh. Things that could've been.

Abi was determined to throw this challenge for us, and was trying REALLY hard to pressure me into it too, but I just don't like throwing. I barely know anyone on that team – losing any of them would be great. Sure, there are definitely people on this team I wouldn't really miss, but, like...we can vote them out if we lose. Going by the schedule, assuming Jeremiah isn't a deceitful bastard(HAHAHAHAHAHA), we shouldn't be swapping until final 16, at least. So...why throw? Chances are we'll lose some along the way. Sure, wiping out Kass's many minions is great, but we can do that when we actually lose.

Regardless, it didn't matter, since the other team eliminated Abi and I first(the two most likely to throw that shit, LOL fail) and I watched helplessly as my team disintegrated around me. What a depressing state of affairs. We lost, and immediately, people looked to Silas and Baylor for not being there. I think it's funny everyone consciously ignored Dolly wasn't either. Sure, she told us she wouldn't be around and sat out, but...Baylor said she wouldn't be around either for work lmao. It just shows the inherent biases in these people's minds.

I'm fine with it, since I want Dolly around for now, and want Baylor out, but it just proves everyone LOVES Dolly, she's in good with EVERYONE, fuck, JFP showed me his last confessional(god that's a sign he really trusts me I shouldn't abuse that, I need to keep him around. But I'm still very concerned he'll add new alliance members TO ME AND ALEX AND HIM'S GROUP CHAT or something. Yikes.) and praised her and how she ALWAYS TALKS TO HIM. Like...she does that to EVERYONE, dude. She's not just the tribe slut, she's the Whore of Babylon out here.

If it was just me that she loved, like she likes to CLAIM, I'd totally be fine with having her around, but she's just talking constantly to EVERYONE. It's lame. Whatever. I still want her around for many, many rounds: plus, I know no one will be getting rid of her...like, ever, until she becomes a ~jury threat~, but I do know I just need to be wary of what I tell her. We had this talk about how we just wanted to troll everyone in the game(god if you know me this is a very enticing offer) but...I just don't know what to believe from her. I think she's just telling everyone and their grandmothers exactly what they want to hear. Sigh. It sucks, since I like her. Liking someone and not being able to trust them sucks majorly.

But, yeah, Baylor should be going tonight. I'm rushing this out right before TC so I don't have time to go into the...finer details, so I guess I'll wait more for next round should I survive.

I will say I'm a bit worried about this vote, because TERESA TOLD BAYLOR ABOUT IT. She also told Sierra about the last vote, which caused a massive meltdown on her part. Plus, with Teresa stray-voting Silas, and now telling me she wants to stray-vote Ed, she's doing nothing more than pissing the whole tribe off. Even me, considering she THREW ME UNDER THE BUS TO BAYLOR and claimed Abi and I were the “masterminds” behind the vote.

Now, I definitely DID try subtly pushing for Baylor, but openly pushing is NOT my thing. I like to get people to do things for me. Which I did. I got people to bring up Baylor, and then told everyone everyone was saying Baylor. Apparently that equates to me being a mastermind in Teresa's mind. I'm REALLY annoyed with this, BECAUSE I SPENT THE LAST 40-SOMETHING HOURS TRYING TO CONVINCE ABI BAYLOR HAD TO GO FIRST BEFORE TERESA. And then this is what happens. Yay. Bah.

Thankfully, I think the vote will still go through on Baylor – she's apparently targeting Ed or Kelly so even though something in my gut is telling me this vote is going to go horribly wrong, it seems like I should be safe? Hopefully, anyhow. Only an hour until we find out.

There's a lot more that I want to talk about, but like I said, this vote is worrying me and when I'm worried about TC my confessional quality suffers because I can't stop thinking about the awful “what-ifs”. I'll come back to everything and describe this round in more detail when I hopefully survive this. I just can't right now. This round pissed me off, but if I survive it and WE DON'T SWAP(please god do NOT tribe swap us, I think I'm good over here if I survive this) then I think I'm in a good spot. Hope and pray.

[Alina Wilson]

Wait, TC results are at NINE now?

Ugh. 2 more hours of panicking for no reason. I'm gonna sob.

[Alina Wilson]

Okay, ONCE AGAIN a little iffy but I'll force a confessional out. I'm too cool to be INV.

Last tribal? BOOM. All according to plan. Baylor is out of here, and apparently Kass was oh so devastated at the loss of her true love. Perfect. One by one by one all of her friends are being taken out, and thank GOD. Going into this I was TERRIFIED--TERRIFIED that she would gain control and march to the end with pregames dominating the whole season. But so far...things don't seem to be proceeding in that direction. I feel great!

Seriously, going into this I was CONVINCED, absolutely CONVINCED, I would have been one of the first four boots...and, hey, I avoided that! And now it looks like I'm going smoothly into the final 18. After Baylor left, Jeremiah announced we'd have a double tribal council – and each person on each tribe was paired up with a random person on the other, and the challenge would be endurance where the people would take turns posting. And, obviously, one person from each tribe would be going home at tribal council.

Now, it's been pretty decided by everyone, as long as Teresa doesn't win immunity? She's going home! She's been the Brian of our tribe – trolling left and right, and, frankly, her throwing me under the bus did me no favors. I have to thank Baylor for slipping up and telling Kelly Teresa told her that. Me finally pushing for a threesome group chat with myself, Kelly, and Edgardo paid off! (SO much better than JFP/Alex, by the way--just because JFP isn't in there and JFP is a wreck and tells Brian EVERYTHING – Kelly and Edgardo are both smart, and even if I think they both have some sort of top secret alliance with each other and I'm not either of their #1s? I care not! They're not ticking time bombs waiting for an excuse to go off. You could say Ed is, but he's smart. He's not an idiot. He knows I want him around. Probably?)

But, yeah, Teresa I like as a person, but, frankly, if you throw me under the bus, I give no shits, I want you out. I want people who are interested in working with me in this game, and if you randomly tell someone that I'm the “mastermind” trying to get someone out...well...that's not a sign of good faith, now is it? Plus, I even confronted her about it since Baylor admitted someone told her that I was pushing for her and I asked her about it, saying I was worried and didn't know who would do such a thing.

What did Teresa do?

Log off and ignore me. How convincing. Seriously, do you people not even know how to act? You could at least like...feign concern or something. Don't just drop off the face of the planet(after me seeing you online for thirty minutes then disappearing) and expect someone to trust you. Geeze. This is ORG 101. Isn't this All Stars? Could've fooled me. >_> Whatever.

Anyways, for the endurance, frankly, I was busy, and so was my partner, so we didn't bother. If it was individual I probably wouldn't have won anyways since I didn't have any time for it, but the fact they won with like...2 hours and 45 minutes is lol. I always expect people to go so much longer – heck, I've gone 13 hours in an endurance before(why am I proud of this yikes) so it's like...no one must really think they're in danger. Either that or the schedules for people just sucked. Whatever. Austin and Edgardo won, which is GREAT.

Meaning, one of the people I'm closest to on that tribe? Totally safe! One of the people I'm closest to on this tribe? Totally safe! Double win. As long as Teresa didn't win, though, that's what mattered, and she didn't. She's a sneaky sneaky girl, but she doesn't really have many tricks up her sleeve this time. If she DOESN'T go home, then, well, color me baffled, because I just can't see it happening.

On the other tribe, apparently Brian is going? Which is FANTASTIC. JFP is an idiot and has been telling him EVERYTHING, and apparently they even stayed up all night on Skype making a fake idol. (Thanks Grant, I love you! <3) Like, Fairplay, my trust in you was already fading, but he had me thinking I was the person he wanted most in this game, but it turns out he'd rather bro-down with Don. Also, NO ONE on this tribe trusts him anyways. If I wanted to manipulate him into going these last few rounds, I probably could've. I didn't, because he was in the upper echelons of my trust-list. He isn't anymore.

If we don't swap, and we lose again? Fairplay's next, so he'd best hope and pray we do swap, while I pray we don't. I don't think we will – at least going off of the schedule, unless Jeremiah is a total scumbag(well, he kinda is...fuck.) so...here's hoping we don't. I like my spot on this team. Sure, I don't think I'm the QUEEN of the tribe – That's Abi, and I'm certainly not the cute whore everybody loves – that's Dolly, but I'd say I'm kind of the queen in the shadows. I think a lot of people like me, and I think I'm in a good spot. I think I'm set to last a while unless some sort of twist ruins my day.

According to Alex, Ed wants an alliance of me, Ed, Kelly, Alex, Abi, and himself...which would be the PERFECT alliance! I'd have a core three with Ed and Kelly, and I really like Abi, Dolly, and Alex too – it'd be glorious. However...Ed isn't the one talking to people. Alex is. Which is just so weird – I'll have to talk to Ed about it, because I WANT this alliance. I WANT it to be a thing. It would be PERFECT.

When it comes to the others, Silas never talks to me much, Marcus is solidly okay since I think he trusts me and wants me to protect him, and JFP...well, he's a wreck. Only thing that irks me is Silas is above Marcus in the pecking order. I want to change that. Silas needs to go sooner than Marcus because we're not close. He doesn't talk to me. I hear him talk to other people and then what he says gets back to me. Marcus looks to me for what's going to happen and such. I like that more. I'll have to figure something out. Marcus IS close with Kass, though, and I need Kass and her minions outta here...sigh. I just don't know! We'll see, I have at least one round to decide since JFP is a buffer-boot.

Thankfully, I think Alex sees what I see too with JFP! He can't be trusted. Alex told me he was annoyed with him telling Don everything...I am too! Perfect. I thought Alex would be too close with JFP and want to include him on this 6-person deal, but he doesn't! He just wants to keep him out of it. God, Alex, do I love you right now. Things are looking up!

Like I said, the thing that scares me most in this game right now? A tribal switch. I honestly don't think one will happen for a while, though. I mean...it's TEAM ARAS vs TEAM JEREMY. Maybe they'll just keep it that way until a merge? Huh? Huh? *constant winking* Welp, we'll at least remain this way until 16 judging by the schedule, which is good enough, I suppose. We might go into 2 tribes of 8 at that point. Theorizing won't help – all I can do is hope and pray we won't.

Teresa is spreading a ton of stuff that people are gonna flip on a swap and whatnot, but I don't think that'll happen. This tribe remaining united would be absolutely perfect! She can try and scare people into flipping into her lovers on the other tribe, but I'm not fooled. Greco for life, man. La Boobera or whatever they're called? They suck. Down with them, I say.

I do think there was more I wanted to say, but I can't really remember. Meh. I'll just say thanks again for inviting me to all stars, since I'm having a ton of fun so far. I'm (I think!) doing way better than I expected to, so...heck yeah to that! Here's hoping it just keeps going that way, yeah?

[Alina Wilson]

this tribe is slowly making me want to stab myself in the face repeatedly

why did this have to happen to me

[Alina Wilson]

God there's so much to write but I think I've somehow bumblefucked my way into a good position. I have no idea how. Wtf? I should totally be gone by now but I won't complain.

[Alina Wilson]

Okay, confessional time!

So...last time, on Warriors, Teresa and Brian left their respective tribes, as I had expected. Things were working out pretty darn well for me – I was pretty much untouchable on Greco, as far as I was concerned, at least for a few rounds!

Then it hit me.

The memory wall has four rows.

Why would Jeremiah swap us into two tribes with three rows at some point?

Then, I realized we have 18 people. 3 rows of 6.

And my dreams slowly started to unravel and get crushed right before my very eyes.

Turns out, when we get to the challenge?

Yeah... we're told to drop our buffs because we're being shuffled into three tribes. Three members from each former tribe on each.

It was at this moment that EVERYTHING I had worked for – every single freaking thing I had done...was completely, utterly pointless. And then I looked at my tribe roster and wept.

KASS. FAIRPLAY. SILAS. CHARLIE. AND AUSTIN.

WHYYYYYYY GOD? The archnemesis I've spent the whole game trying to remove? The trainwreck who I don't know if I can trust? The guy who I have NO IDEA what he's thinking and doesn't talk to me that much? Charlie? The guy who hasn't talked to me since the outset? The only GOOD thing about this tribe swap was Austin, who I had a pregame F2 with. Obviously, however, everyone and their grandmother would know that we're a pair—which makes that kind of hard to operate. Austin's great and I adore him, but our partnership is obvious to anyone with even the slightest bit of foresight—anyone could see that one coming.

So, long story short? I thought I was completely, utterly screwed. I immediately just went to Austin and begged for mercy and that I'd flip and blah blah and then we could do stuff if we got down to the final four of the tribe and he seemed fine with it. I didn't care, man. I was convinced Kass DESPISED me – and I know Charlie doesn't want to play for me to win again(though it would be nice if he did...:p) so I needed to work on my insurance FAST. Austin is the only person on this tribe I really had a semblance of actual loyalty to, lol. I wanted to be saved from everyone else.

But somehow – SOMEWAY...things...started working out. I sat there, absolutely baffled, as both Silas and JFP basically confided in me that we had to work together and blah blah blah and I was like...oh. And it turned out...maybe I'm not screwed after all! I told both of them I'd try and talk Austin into flipping(let's be real – EVERYONE knows we're close--it's not like I can hide that) and stuff, and...this was after Austin told Kass and Charlie that he had me.

So somehow? Someway? Austin and I ended up as the swing votes of the tribe.

LOL.

Eventually, JFP took to talking to Austin himself and...well, to put this in simple terms, allow me to show you all why JFP...is a mess.



Sound advice, right? You'd think he'd totally listen to that.



NOPE.

ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS, FAIRPLAY? I LITERALLY...I LITERALLY TOLD YOU EXPLICITLY NOT TO DO THIS A WEEK AGO! *flips table*

Seriously, Fairplay...is a mess. If he had added ANYONE OTHER THAN AUSTIN at ANY POINT into that chat? Ever? Well, we'd be FUCKED. Because they would have known they were on the outs, and we would be absolutely toast. I KNEW he would do something like this – I just...I KNEW. Thank GOD I kept saying “we can wait to add people to the alliance, let's do it tomorrow...and then tomorrow...and then tomorrow” over and over again. If I hadn't done that? Dear god...just imagining it scares the hell outta me. I'm shuddering.

THANKFULLY, he added Austin, who better frigging know that he's my #1 when it comes to this, and even if JFP thinks he's the mob boss here, I'm the mob boss. Back on Greco I was just the trusted Consigliere, but I've been promoted now that I'm on this team. Am I cocky? Yes! Is it totally justified? I think so.

After this, we decided we'd just string JFP along – let's face it, he's not the most game savvy guy. At this rate, he thinks we're both completely under his control, so we'll just let him think that and he can be our #3 while we run the show over here on NuGreco. Team Aras for LIFE. JFP is VERY lucky we swapped – seriously, he went from the bottom of the totem pole to #3 in the tribe.

All in all, though, we decided we'd pull in Silas as a fourth, and I made sure to speak to JFP very, very slowly, and very, very carefully that WHEN WE DO TALK TO SILAS, WE HAVE TO MAKE A NEW CHAT. Thankfully, he actually DID do that when I got ahold of Silas – if he hadn't...ugh. Just keeping an eye on Fairplay makes me scared for my life in this game. He's gonna blow everything up somehow, I just...I feel it. And it scares me.

Now, all things said and done? I'm in the middle on this team with Austin. Kass and Charlie are targeting Silas because he did...AWFUL in his part of the challenge, like, really really bad. It was a mistake, but...yeah. Mistakes can cost you your torch, and he's lucky this one won't cost his. After talking about it, Austin, JFP and I were kind of at a standstill between Kass and Charlie, hell, we even channeled Bermuda when we flipped a coin to boot Kelly/Colby at the merge, and did that to decide who to boot here.

It came up Charlie.

BUT then, earlier today, Austin decided to change his mind and want Kass out. Okay. Whatever. I really didn't care. And Fairplay wanted Kass out to begin with, so...yeah. Silas did too. So the vote changed to Kass, and she should be going 4-2, with those two votes headed in Silas's direction, so, even if some idol shenanigans go down, I should be totally safe! Woot!

I thought this tribe swap would be BAD at first, but, honestly...unless idol stuff goes down...I think I'm a shoe-in for top two of this tribe alongside Austin. If we lose again, Charlie would clearly go, and then at four Silas or JFP would go, and then the other at three. So...yeah, I'm feeling pretty good. And it sounds like I'm cocky a lot in these, but I'm actually a paranoid wreck deep down. But...I'm not feeling like a paranoid wreck. Either that means I've gotten a lot better at ORGs and have that under check, or I'm just doing THAT good. I like the latter option, to be honest.

I didn't even notice it was a double tribal with two tribes going to tribal until we lost that challenge(Thanks Silas ;___; jk I forgive you), but it looks like Kelly is going on the other team that lost, which...sucks. I liked my Me/Kelly/Edgardo alliance, and it would have been hilarious if that was somehow the final three. Like, rewriting history, bitches! You know? How cool would that have been? It sucks that Kelly has to go, but I do think Kelly/Ed were closer with each other than they were with me, so...maybe this just pushes Ed closer to me, huh? That'd be cool.

Anyways, I'll do a quick rundown on my new tribemates, why the heck not?

With Austin...there's not much to say. He's bae #1 for me, and, hey, I think we're set for top two of this team. Awesomeness. He's cool and I trust him, so...yeah.

Charlie...I've been told he doesn't have love for me and wants to vote me out just to make a point that he's not playing for me to win again or something, which is kinda hurtful, since I like Charlie and wouldn't mind if he stuck around a while. But, yeah, it's stuff like that that keeps me a bit cautious. I wanna remain cordial and friends with Charlie, but...I can't really entirely trust him. I feel actually a little bad about not voting with him and Kass, and I'll go into that in a bit here.

See, Kass came up to me and told me that she doesn't have any problems with me and we've had problems in the past and stuff but she still likes me and wants to work with me.

And then I felt like an asshole.

I mean...have I been leading a crusade against her for reasons that weren't even properly based in reality? Was it all in my head? Am I really THAT bad? Ugh. I honestly feel bad about it, though? It's weird, since I don't usually feel bad about votes in games – this is the first one I've reallly felt bad about since I got in here(woulda felt bad about Teresa if she admitted to throwing me under the bus ), which is COMPLETELY ass backwards since I've been trying to semi-target her from the start. How does that happen?

I just actually feel bad because I've just..ugh. I don't even know. I find that when I play ORGs, I never really let myself get emotionally invested in people anymore. I did a ton at the start of my ORGing, but after that...I just kind of...stopped? I can't really explain it – I just find that I end up looking at people as objects to throw under the bus to keep myself alive instead of...actual other people playing the game. I'm totally fine when it comes to real life, but if you toss me into something like this I kind of just become the world's biggest uncaring bitch.

I mean, sure, it's a tried and tested strategy that almost always gets me far in games, but still. I kind of wish I could play like a normal person. I find myself literally having to force myself to be loyal to people because I'm so obsessed with self-preservation and nothing else – I like doing well, what can I say? Still, it makes me feel like I'm playing chess with the express goal to make sure my Queen is the last piece standing, instead of actually playing to win. I'm...not sure what to do about it.

But, yeah, even though I try to shut down my empathy and caring for other people in these, for some reason I'm feeling it here? I feel really bad that Kass is going and that I'm basically fucking Charlie over. Ugh. I'm not going to try to change the vote or anything – that'd just be objectively silly, but it's just...weird. I'm trying to avoid turning into an emotional wreck in this game as I'd actually like to do well. Sigh.

Whatever, just have to move forward from here. Honestly, I get the feeling two tribes will be going to TC for a while, and knowing my luck? We'll be going to each one of them, so I'm just getting myself prepared for that. If we do keep losing, I'll just have to watch the tribe slowly crumble around me into ashes. But then...you know, I can always rise from those ashes a phoenix reborn and kick some serious ass.

[Alina Wilson]

Know how I said I felt bad earlier?

Yeah, I don't anymore.

[Alina Wilson]

So, Kass just left, exactly as planned. Yay! Like I said above, I actually felt bad until she ran into the group chat screaming about how stupid Austin was and how SHE'S THE ONLY PERSON TO TAKE HIM SERIOUSLY OMIGOSH. Like...that's kind of a HUGELY assholeish thing to say. I just think it's funny that the people who were talking about taking this easy and not taking the game too seriously are the ones most pissed off when they get voted off. Irony.

According to Kass, Austin is NEXT GONE AND HE'S SO STUPID O MY LORD for voting against her, which...lol k. Apparently, she thinks we're a bunch of second-rate Disney movie villains who'll just backstab for the lulz. I mean, sure, I've done that, but I don't plan on doing that in this game. I mean...Fairplay and Silas are kind of like Disney movie villains. But, they might be Disney villains - but I'm not. I'm the Disney Princess. I just need a tiara and I'm set.

But, yeah, she thinks that me and JFP don't intend on taking Austin far, and ~I~ do, even though I can't speak for JFP - because he's...a confusing, yet transparent enigma. Seriously, he makes no sense and yet is completely obvious about making no sense at the same time. How does he do it? I don't know. But even though he's famous for making 5000 alliances in Japan, I...don't think he's doing that here? Probably? I think I'd notice if he was. Considering his group-chat adding skills so far, I think if he was making other ones he just would have added them all to that same chat and hope nobody noticed the new people in there.

Anyways, now we have a crossword puzzle challenge, AND ONCE AGAIN, TWO TRIBES ARE GOING TO TC. Of freaking course. I knew it. Sigh. I'm gonna hope we win this, but like I said, I never have faith when it comes to winning tribal challenges. Whenever I win one I'm like "Wait, what? How did THAT happen?" I think I did pretty well on mine - each person on a tribe gets a puzzle identical to one someone on each other tribe has, and the first placer on that puzzle gets 2 points, second gets 1, and the loser gets zilch. Not much more to it than that.

Charlie hasn't even logged on to see the results, and I'm not sure if I feel bad or if I'm happy. Because on one hand I don't have to deal with a bunch of drama, and on the other...the poor guy is totally oblivious lol. Welp.

Also Kelly is gone which depresses me a metric fuck ton but oh well. Apparently Coach is inactive as hell and even stayed over her. LAME.

[Alina Wilson]

More on how I'm making myself into the world's biggest sociopathic asshole later!

[Alina Wilson]

And here we are again! So, we ONCE AGAIN lost the immunity challenge. How fun, right? Jk it sucks.

There isn't a ton to say, really. This round has FELT eventful...but when you think about it, only a few things have ended up happening.

Right now, Austin/JFP/I are essentially the core three of this tribe, with Charlie and Silas are technically on the outs. Now, Charlie was on the outs of the last vote, and I apologized to him and etc and I think I did a good job of that. Mainly, I just want to avoid people voting for me. Does it suck to lie to people over and over again and make them think you're on their side? Yes, it makes me feel like a total asshole, especially when I don't particularly have any intent of actually keeping them around. But does it keep the target off me and prevent everything from imploding in my face? Yes. And that's what matters. Sure, if these people were going to the jury, I might have a bit of a problem on my hands...but they aren't! It's pre-merge and pre-jury, so...I can get away with this for now.

Basically, the plan this round has been to tell Charlie that Silas is going, while the rest of us..just vote Charlie. Basically, if Charlie DOES pop out an idol—which is REALLY unlikely, but I'm not the type of person who's fond of taking chances when there's no need to—Silas goes out, and not one of us three.

However...yeah, it is kinda unnecesarily cruel and evil. I feel like the queen bitch of the universe right now, seriously; it's the mid-game and this is always when I start disintegrating into an emotional wreck instead of thinking logically about things, and I REALLY feel bad for Charlie that I'm basically just...manipulating the living fuck out of him. He's going to be hella pissed at me and he has all the right to be. But I legit feel bad because I LIKE Charlie, it's just...I'm sure he has tons of friends back on La Boobies or whatever that tribe was called, and, like...sigh. I'm sure he'd just flip on us the first shot he got since we already excluded him.

Now that was clearly a tactical error on my part, but I thought Charlie/Kass were close – apparently not. Also, in addition to that, JFP EVEN TOLD CHARLIE KASS WAS GOING BEFORE RESULTS? WTF? He said it was to make sure Charlie didn't feel like he was on the outs, which is a total lie. See, Fairplay, if you wanted to play fair and make him feel like he wasn't on the outs? Well, we'd ALL TELL HIM THAT. No, you made a selfish decision to paint yourself in the heroes light in Charlie's eyes. You're just thinking of your own self preservation – don't try and twist it so that you were doing it for all of us, you were doing it for you. Ugh. He's always finding a way to somehow make things go severely off track what I planned.

Unless I'm being completely played like a fiddle – Charlie should be going this round, it sucks, I feel bad that I'm manipulating the fuck out of him and making him feel like he's safe, but yeah...I did have a dream that Austin betrayed me and voted me out – and if he does that he's SUPER dumb, but we'll see if I have prophetic powers or not soon enough.

Honestly, if we go to TC again after this, I might want JFP gone over Silas. I like Silas. Silas talks to me. He keeps asking me about vote stuff. We've grown close through this swap. JFP, however, barely speaks to me. I get everything from him via Austin. I know Austin doesn't care for Silas, though, which is an issue. Plus, who knows how Alex would react...still, though, JFP is a trainwreck. Silas has a functioning brain. That alone is reason to keep him around. I don't know what the heck to do. All I know is if I survive this vote I should be set for another round. This vote, though...worries me. A ton. It shouldn't, and I know that, but I just have a really sinking feeling something bad is going to happen. And I don't like it.

[Alina Wilson]

And Austin just told Charlie he was going.

Merp. Now it's just really depressing. I guess it's less depressing than a blindside but ugh I feel really bad that now Charlie is just gonna feel hopeless for half an hour.

[Alina Wilson]

Austin: No worries, haha, if we tell Charlie now, he can't flip the vote. It's too late.

*5 minutes later*

Austin: After talking to Charlie, he's very persuasive. Would you consider voting Silas?

[Alina Wilson]

Seriously though I've aligned myself with three of the most wishy-washy human beings on the planet. It SUCKS, I LOVE Charlie, but he KNOWS we were gonna vote him out. Plus, we left him out last vote too! He'd never trust us again. It sucks, but it literally doesn't make sense to keep him because he would neverrr have trust in us.

How am I one of the most logical, sane people in this cast? Seriously, people! :/