Welcome!

[Alina Wilson]

Lit sorry for being so lazy about confessing the last few rounds though. I've just been so blah. I want like a five day vacation from this game. Sure, I have immunity, but that doesn't count really. Sigh. ANYWAY.

So last round was lolwtfbbq, apparently the other side had both powers and Dolly flipped to us in her quest to become an O TTNN villain, which is...ridiculous. You don't be a villain by TRYING to be a villain intentionally. You do it by just...being one. Maybe you intentionally do actions, and then that's villainous, but to do actions just to be a villain? Really? Meh. I guess if it makes her happy. She's pretty benign from my point of view, people just somehow listen to everything she says and hang off every word. She's some kind of word sorceress or something.

Anyhow, we hold a pretty solid majority over LJ-Yul-PG on paper, but, as said, Marcus decided to try acid for the first time at the same time as he logged on AIM, resulting in some weird 6 person alliance that never got a group chat or anything made. Okay? Lol. It's pretty clear it was never gonna go anywhere just because of the shoddy, impulsive way it was made.

Austin was obsessed with working with LJ, and apparently LJ has been WARY OF ME like...ok? Maybe that's because he only messages me when I'm asleep lol. I get he's from the Phillipines or whatev but still. He only small talks me when I'm awake and as soon as I go to bed he starts spamming me with SO WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THE GAME. You should like, swap those around. So I go to butter LJ up and blah blah next time he messages me, and he proposes a foursome with me/Austin/PG, which is fine, except for the fact LJ is in it. But I agreed because ofc WHY WOULDN'T I.

I like PG on the other side, but the rest of them I don't really have strong feeling towards, or I just actively want them out (LJ/Dolly) so I guess that was okay. Now, this alliance might have saved LJ for a few rounds.

HOWEVER I learn from Marcangel(look at me I'm bipolar flip flopping between opinions on ppl again <3) that he's just saying shit about me to EVERYONE. Like, bitch? You just opened up a world of hurt. Marcus came to the light after....something, I guess last vote, that LJ is a sneaky guy who sucks and needs to gtfo. THANK YOU LORD. And Marcus brought up that...when we go to tribal council...LJ can get his fat winnery ass out of here before he becomes Sandra 2.0.

And it worked. Ed and Silas seemed on board, and Alex was too. Austin didn't show up until I woke up this morning, but whatever. He wanted to keep LJ and boot Dolly first, but eventually after everyone else supported LJ going for one reason or another, mainly that Marcus and Alex probably would have flipped out if we targeted Dolly – he gave in. Thank god, considering LJ AGAIN today is running around, throwing me and Austin under the bus.

Like, bro, fuck off. Seriously. You OFFER ME AN ALLIANCE in which I CAN KEEP YOUR ASS SAFE for a few rounds and then, hell, probably get peer pressured by Austin into going with you guys deep as heck into the game, and THEN YOU IMMEDIATELY RUN TO OTHER PEOPLE AND SELL ME AND AUSTIN UNDER THE BUS? ? HOW DOES THIS MAKE SENSE. Why would you MAKE AN ALLIANCE WITH ME and immediately break it numerous times just to try and get me and Austin outta here?

The poor guy must have had a seizure when I won immunity this round, because clearly the jealousy is strong in him. I mean, no one can really blame him for being jealous of me – I AM kind of amazing, but still. It's not a cute color on anybody. I didn't even think I needed immunity, but it's definitely nice to have, especially with LJ spazzing out this round. He should be going, but he apparently GOT AUSTIN TO TELL HIM DOLLY WAS THE VOTE, AND THEN COPYPASTED TO DOLLY. Like...my god. The guy's strategy is ALL OVER THE PLACE. Like, look, I get being a selfish player, I get doing anything to survive, but there's a certain...way you have to do it...that you're just not doing right. It's just sloppy. He can enjoy being “wary of me” in Ponderosa.

I do think it's funny that Marcus totally believes me and Austin over everything LJ's saying, because, while I NEVER spoke to LJ about the shit he's saying about me (he's literally just taking things Austin said and pinning them on me), Austin DID say just about all of that, so...I feel kind of bad. Marcus: The World's Most Trusting Human. <3 He SHOULDN'T keep coming and telling us this stuff, but I'm sure as heck glad he does. Unless LJ manages to pull off a MASSIVE coup d'etat at tonight's tribal council, he should be going. If anyone else goes (meaning, probably Austin, and if he goes I'll super-duper flip the fuck out) I'll be PISSED and there will be hell to pay.

In other news, considering Ed told me about his idol, I trust him(lol) so I offered him a F3 and obviously since everyone and their grandmother seems to know we're close he suggested we just bring in Austin as the third. I need to go more in depth with Austin about this but frankly this day has been a clusterfuck of trying to get LJ out and dissuade people from believing the constant shit he's slinging. I'll worry about it later. But yeah, an Ed/Me/Austin F3 would be badass. I'm good with that. The last two Bermudan's and bae incarnate? Works for me!

Honestly, even if I make the end, I don't think I'm playing a winning game considering I'm mostly just alt-tabbing out of AIM and doing random stuff while claiming I'm doing stuff to them instead of socializing. Oh well. I don't really want to be the winner anyways. Making FTC would be cool, I guess, but I'd rather be a late-game juror than anything. If I do make it I'll at least make it so people I like end up there with me, though. I doubt I'll win, but eh, I'm not really playing for it. Someone I actually like winning is enough victory to me.

After winning a game before, I...don't really care about winning most of the time anymore, so meh. I like to make it far, sure, but winning is too much effort as awful as that sounds. I mean, people keep trying to make alliances and stuff with me, so maybe I'm not doing THAT bad, but I think Austin would probably beat me in the end since he's more active socially with the people I'm not. But yeah, him winning I'd probably like more than me winning anyways LOL. That's not saying I'm just gonna throw the whole game to him, but I'm not gonna actively try to overthrow his chances. If he beats me, he beats me. I'm good w/it.

Next round I guess it'll probably be Dolly or Marcus(Ed thinks he has an idol lol so...) provided nothing completely insane happens – I thought it'd be Marcus this round and I'm so glad it isn't. I'm so happy LJ is finally getting the hell out of Sicily. It's a dream come true. I want Dolly gone next, but I guess we'll just wait and see what happens. I'm just gonna sit back, watch stuff, and hopefully LJ dies tonight. If he doesn't...yeah I'm not going to be a happy Alina, so...we'll see.

[Alina Wilson]

Also Chelsea Meissner I love you thank you for liking my posts <3

[Alina Wilson]

Host Aras too, best host <3

[Chelsea Meissner]

Jun 13, 2015 21:50:44 GMT Alina Wilson said:

Also Chelsea Meissner I love you thank you for liking my posts <3

Of course!!!

I love your long confessionals and spazzy quick updates!

Plus you're full of attitude and sarcasm <3

[Alina Wilson]

Jeremiah don't be bitter at Aras and dislike me calling him best host! I might like you more if you start liking my confessionals <3 Plus the more likes I get the more motivated I am to confess, soooo that's a win/win there =P

[Alina Wilson]

It's okay Jeremiah, you can keep on disliking. I'll forgive you as long as you give me my rightful place in the Superstar season.

[Alina Wilson]

Oh.

Oh. Tonight's gonna be fun.

The bore-pagonging curse is soon to be lifted, friends!

[Alina Wilson]

I'm inhumanly excited for tonight. The last few rounds it's been kinda dull, Robb goes, Dolly makes it even more boring by flipping(thanks though!) and Coach goes, then LJ goes for being a psycho rat. But tonight...tonight should be the ending of all the nonsense, and soon chaos will just completely take over the game.

I'm starting to feel like I'm an idiot savant at this game, because things I do with little rhyme or reason behind them are REALLY starting to pay off. I offered Ed a final three with me and Austin since I like and trust him the most out of everybody else? That has paid me DIVIDENDS in tonight. Apparently, Marcus has been running around trying to form an alliance including everyone except for Austin, myself, Yul and PG. Dear god, I don't even know how he does this. The guy logs on to AIM for two hours every two days, then shows up and starts making alliances and deals with anything that moves. Geeze.

However, Ed, realizing that those four are almost certain to have a deal in some capacity, and that me and Austin will actually take him to F3, wants to flip to us and have us work with Yul and PG and sidesweep the hell out of the rest of them.

This plan not only works out perfectly STRATEGICALLY, but PERSONALLY for me, too. I liked Alex at first, but, lately, he's barely EXISTED. He's like an imaginary friend. I also like Marcus, but, let's be real, he can talk about how he wants to be partners with me – but I don't think I can believe that. Him and Silas are TOTES BFFs. I'd just be another cog in the machine for him. Silas is cool, but, yeah, I don't think he wants to go places with me in the game. -shrug-. The other person in that alliance...um...LOL who even else is there? OH DOLLY LOL. Yeah, as much as she's this “villain111oneoneoneoen” she's kinda forgettable, huh? Oops. Yeah, she's barely spoken to me since merge, so, bye.

And on the other hand, I have Austin and Ed who I adore, PG who I ~ALSO~ adore, and Yul who I'm liking more each and every time I talk to him. He has a personality; a long lost relic that some people on this tribe do not simply possess. So aligning with the five of them is basically a Survivor dream.

And, as far as I know, the plan's worked PERFECTLY. Yul's on board, PG's on board, we have a group chat, and it's all just perfect. The plan tonight is for us to target Marcus, since he's basically their Godfather. The main reason, though, is that he once told Ed he got eight right on his locked door. EIGHT. That's a lot. If he has an idol, we have to flush that shit NOW, before he has any clue what's going on. I definitely like Marcus more than I like other people in that group, however...yeah, keeping him around just wouldn't be wise. We have to make him comfortable tonight, then swoop in, slit his throat, wash our hands, and walk out and leave like nothing ever happened.

Austin came up with the plan to make the “majority of 7” split the votes on Yul and PG tonight, since Marcus's pecking order involves getting rid of them first before taking Austin and I out. Heh, well, so much for that one, eh? See, the plan is, get them to split 2-2. Marcus, Alex, and “Austin and I” are voting “Yul” while Ed, Dolly and Silas vote PG. ...I think. I'd be lying if I said I was paying all too much attention during that meeting.

Either way, if Marcus DOES idol, technically we can kind of choose which of Yul and PG we want, provided nothing weird happens. But we're going to do our best to make sure that DOESN'T happen. I had a good talk with him, earlier, I think, and as long as he doesn't realize the fact I actually instigated a conversation is strange, I think I played it off well. Yul is gonna campaign to him later, etc, etc.

If he plays an idol, we're gonna be at a 4-4 deadlock, but I think our side would be tighter than theirs, PLUS, we're all FAR better in challenges, and have at least one idol at our disposal(Ed's auction one). So as much as I hope he DOESN'T idol, I don't think we're COMPLETELY boned if he does. Plus, even though I'm vulnerable tonight, I don't think I'll be the target. This is one of those weird rounds where even though I'm vulnerable, I feel like I'm immune. That's how confident I am. Meaning I'm going to be blindsided for the first time ever, but eh. I don't think that'll happen. It'd be silly for anyone to try anything on me, I think.

Obviously, though, planning can't just end here. Yul/PG didn't bring up Dolly as a boot option, which is...interesting. So we're coming up with a contingency plan in case they try something down the road. After the vote we make nice with Silas – Austin and I make a fake F3 with him. Edgardo gets tight with Yul and PG and makes a fake F3 with them. Then we have connections with both sides that'll hopefully get us to top six, because once we're there, we have 50% of the vote. At that point, we're basically set. So it's all just about getting there which obviously will be a bit of a tricky thing, but I think it's very well possible.

Next round, we suggest Dolly – if they don't go for it we settle for Alex. Then we have Silas's vote to protect us if those three try ganging up, ideally, anyways. We'd be the optimal people to side with, since they're all original La Barbera and they all skype and facebook together. He'd be ridiculous to not side with us over them if we make him comfortable with a few deals here and there. Sure, we'd be BREAKING said deals, but...oh well. If people get mad and angry at me in the end, that's fine. I'm playing to get to the end with the two people I want to get there with. If people want to vote for me, cool. If they decide I'm too cutthroat or etc, I don't really mind second or third. The power of friendship, bitches!

Majority rules, the challenge this round, gave me a LOT of compliments. I'm apparently the biggest hero(lol again, wtf people? You should know by now I'm not heroic in the least. :x), the most likely to win, the person people would trust with their LIVES(OH DEAR GOD WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO YOURSELVES), most likely to win the challenge, MOST DESERVING OF MY AS TITLE <3 <3 <3 etc. I gave myself NONE of those, and if I had just been a BIIIIT more arrogant, I woulda won immunity. Oops.

Me/Austin/Ed all got the highest scores though, which is pretty cool and hopefully symbolic of us getting the highest placements in the whole season. <3 Austin won immunity, which...is the only thing that scares me, since we're a pair, and I would have THOUGHT before this challenge, he would have been targeted over me for being more active socially, etc, but since he “mistakenly think he has the win in the bag” compared to me who apparently HAS it...maybe I'm the bigger threat and just didn't know it?

Sure, I thought I was playing an OKAY game, but the best? Thanks guys. <3 The thing is, in this game, even though I didn't think I was playing a strong game, perception is reality, and if people think that I'm powerful, then power I have. So let them think that. If I won, I'd laugh uncontrollably because I haven't even been trying that hard. Alinaownage!

We'll see. Tonight is the laying of the first stone on the path to victory, if this is a success, I think I've got a good shot. If it fails? ...Much less so. It all comes down to tonight. Here come the fireworks, though, one way or another. Tonight'll be fun.

So, Marcus, you see that throne over there? That has my name on it. Mine. You don't get to just sit down on it and cover up my name. It doesn't work that way. That throne is mine until the day I die or decide I don't want it anymore. And I still want it. So I hope you enjoy losing your head tonight. Seeya.

[Alina Wilson]

yully_kwon
YOUR NAME PROBABLY ISNT EVEN ALINA



He's in for a plot twist

[Alina Wilson]

Yul knows nothing about me and I'm letting him think w/e he wants because lol <3

Last night he was like PFT YOU'RE TALKING AS IF ALINA IS A REAL GIRL

It's cute <3

[Alina Wilson]

And I hath returned!

So, tonight's vote was supposed to have been simple, you know? Me, Yul, PG, Austin, Ed, hold the power, and send home one of Alex or Silas, since Dolly, of course, won immunity. With one minute. Somehow. But...it's not that simple. Nothing ever is, especially not in this game. Now, see, Alex is REALLY REALLY desperate to stay – so much so he offered myself, Ed, and Austin a F4. And...I trust Alex more than I trust Silas. Because Alex is telling me all this stuff about how we were close early on etc etc, and Silas...is giving me the silent treatment. And shittalking me and Austin to Edgardo. Bold move, genius. We were considering keeping Silas at first, but after that? He fucked himself royally.

But Yul and PG are...awfully defensive of Silas. Apparently, PG even admitted to Ed it was because they were suspicious of me, Austin, Ed being a trio. REALLY? WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU EVEN ADMIT THAT? That just shows you're planning something next round with him. And since Dolly was bragging to me about how she had OH SO MUCH FUN skyping with PG and Yul the last few nights, then if we let those four stay? PG+Yul+Silas+Dolly = DEATH.

So we need to take one of those out of the equation. So Ed came up with the plan that we just go after Yul. Which is perfect. Silas won't draw rocks for those bozos, and after that, me+Ed+Alex+Austin have majority to do whatever the heck we want. If I offer Alex a F3 with me and Austin, he'll buy that and side with us over them, too, most likely, so we're SET if this goes our way.

If Yul goes, PG and Dolly are both huge threats in the end, so if they're around, that keeps the target off of Austin and I. And Silas...Silas doesn't really do anything. He's just there. But he's a crucial plot of this plan.

Because, see, we can't have him drawing rocks for those three. If he does, that's DISASTROUS. So the plan, courtesy of Austin, is to tell him that HE is getting the votes. And we send him chat logs replacing everything they said about Alex...to Silas. It's pretty brilliant, some of the quotes work hilariously. He won't be able to believe a word they say. So he votes with us against Yul, thinking he's forcing the tie, but in reality he's just giving us the fifth vote we need to cement our majority. Boom.

So we'll give in to PG and Yul, vote “Alex” like they want...and then...shocker of the century. Me, Ed and Austin are playing pretty Tony games. Just...as three people instead of one. It'll be fun. Austin wants to consider taking Alex to the end over Ed, which I guess is worth considering, but IDK, like I said, I like Ed, so I don't know if I wanna do that. We'll see, I guess. It depends on how things shake out from here.

Sorry there isn't much to say here – the plan's pretty clear cut. It could go horribly wrong, or might go right. We'll just have to wait and see.

[Alina Wilson]

Alina: I think we should tell Dolly:

Austin: Ehhhhhhhhhhhh

*30 minutes later*

Austin: By the way I'm gonna tell Dolly.

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If I didn't like you so much the things I would do to you for so obviously playing for jury votes....

[Alina Wilson]

Lol of course dolly went and told them. I cant blame her I would have done the same but...ugh. Now it's a 4-4 deadlock between austin and yul so...yeah. I'm drawing rocks and alex says he is too so...i guess it's up to ed lol. He said hes considering not doing it and I tiried to convince him out of it but I wouldnt be shocked if he flips. Sigh.

I don't even care about that anymore tbh i'm just really frustrated with everything in general

because apparently both dolly/silas (and to a lesser extent PG) etc were all like shit talking me in their own way like silas is making shit up saying that I ignored him when...what? How can I ignore you if you never talk to me or are never online? And made up a bunch of shit that I “Said” last night that I...clearly didn't at all lol. Like...what the fuck? If you want to hate me for actual reasons thats fine but don't go and make up shit just to justify it. What the fuck ever.

Same with dolly who I actually told stuff being honest but apparently that means I'M BEING A TRANSPARENT LIAR AND FAKE like lol. I dont know it just really pisses me off that be being honest about something apparently makes me a fucking manipulative bitch? Like okay at least have the balls to say something to me if that's what you think instead of shit talking me to someone else.

I'm literally done. If ed or alex gets rocked out i'm just going to go full OTTN asshole so they vote me out first over whoever stays. They want to be here more than me and I actually legitimately like them (I actually dont dislike anyone even though I have wayy too much fun being an asshole in confessionals but yeah) so...i'd be happier if they made it further if one of us has to go. So if I win immunity i'm just going to give it up every time as well lol

I'm just frustrated with everything because apparently half this game hates me for shit I didn't even do or they're just absolutely twisting everything in their own head so that their fake made up intentions are completely different from what I actually meant by them. At least ask instead of making it up and declaring it to be the truth.

I'm literally just sick of ORGs, this is way too much fucking drama and shit for me. This is probably my last one. I just don't want to deal with this anymore.

[Alina Wilson]

If I quit, is tribal council cancelled and Austin is safe?

just asking in case Ed decides not to want to draw rocks I'd rather quit than let Austin go. I don't want to be in the game without him at this point.

[Alina Wilson]

yeah ed is saying he's debating if he wants to draw rocks or not

well i told him to let me know what he decided to do because if he decides not to i'm going to quit so austin stays instead of me, he deserves it way more than i do