Time for my
(probably, if not, then...wow) last confessional!
So, Alex OFC left in the purple rocking, like, why wouldn't he? Why would anything go well? So, myself, Austin and Ed kinda...got into the seat of shittiness. This is the first time any of us have really been in the minority, so...it definitely is not fun. Honestly, at this point I'm just realllly burnt out on ORGs for reasons both in and out of the game, so...blegh. I know that I'd rather go first before them, since they both really wanna be here, while I'm essentially apathetic. If I get booted I'll be like
“Oh. How unfortunate. Okay, back to watching TV shows now. Bai.”So when I won immunity this round
(apparently it wasn't even close, lol, my only challenge competition is Dolly TBH and to a lesser extent PG oops, I could PROBABLY go on an immunity run if I wanted to, but...eh.) I just decided to hand it over to Austin. Stupid? Not really, considering I'm well aware I'll probably go home. I'm terribly sorry to everyone out there with a facebook cat lady mindset who can't comprehend what going ~The Full Jenn Brown~ is like. It's actually pretty cool sorry and I don't give a fuck what you think if you disagree because this is what I wanted to do and these games are for fun – not to mindlessly carry on and do shit you don't want to. ^_^ If I want to give up immunity, I can do it – deal with it.
Soooo, yeah, chances are I'm going home over Ed here because, well, I basically told PG and Yul I don't really care anymore. I guess they can use this as a reason to keep me, but, eh, I think I'll be going. If they boot Ed over me I'll be pretty shocked. And sad tbh because Ed deserves to go further.
Obviously I don't think they'll flip to us – they didn't flip when purple rocks were at stake, why would they flip now? They all assume
(rightfully tbh) that me, Austin, Ed will be a solid F3 regardless, so...I can't really BLAME them for not flipping, but it just means that Ed or I ~will~ be going home. Preferably me. I'll take one for the team, die on the sword, etc etc blah blah. They both have higher shots of winning and both wanna be here more, so...
? I don't really mind going over them. I'd prefer it tbh. I'd rather go out on my own terms here.
So, my goose is probably cooked. Oh well, I had a ton of fun for the most part while it lasted, I'm just dead with regards to ORGs and can't really bring myself to carry on right now, lol. Not in the right mindstate at all for it – you guys did great hosting(even if you never liked my confessionals, Jeremiah, and even if you never read them, Tasha) and many thanks to IDK the PWs who don't suck.
I guess I'll do a final rites-of-passage-esque thing on everybody left before I depart to the netherworld:
Austin: Bae. If he goes and gets himself voted out right after I did this for him, I'mma bitch slap him. Just saying. <3 Love him though and I hope he magically makes the end.
Dolly: VILLAIN VILLAIN VILLAIN HASHTAG HASHTAG HASHTAG HASHTAG SMILEY FACE SMILEY FACE. -_- She's okay, I guess, but her tryhard villain schtick is far more annoying in practice than it is in idea. It's not very cute. When she puts that aside she can be fun but sadly half the time she's bragging about how
“villainous11111” she is. Even when it works out in your favor it's annoying. Villains happen naturally. Villains happen because of who you are. They don't happen because you're desperate to be something you're not.
Edgardo: <3 I'm really glad, even though it got JFP booted, that I did my thing the round LJ idoled, because otherwise Ed would be gone and I love him. I know he's pissed about me giving up immunity but I'm doing it for him tbh lol, I think he might have gone if I didn't give the necklace to Austin, and he deserves to stay. He's awesome.
PG: <3 I love her jsyk even though she keeps talking to other people and letting her convos with me die I still like her. Wish we coulda been closer allies this whole game but oh well. Just doesn't work out sometimes.
Silas: I've said my peace on him to multiple people. I don't understand what the point of a lot of things he said about me were because just about everything was blatantly untrue. And he doesn't even log on for me to confront him
(and if he does he just ignores me – I keep seeing him going “hi im here 
) rnt u all so happy ))” in group chats hours later and he doesn't reply to me, so...... ??) and ask, but whatever. Congratulations on being the finals loser again this season, Silas! You burned my vote; hope you feel good about yourself!
Yul: <3 I really like him too. I liked him more with each and every convo and he's really fun. He even said he wants to stay in touch and be friends after the game so A+ to that because he's awesome. If it's him and PG in the finals together I'm going to cry trying to decide who to vote for bc they both rock.
And...no one else is here. LOL Final 7. I never would have thought it. Heck, I would've been final six if I didn't give away immunity – which...is something I DEFINITELY never would have expected. I made it way farther than I thought I would – and I even could have gone on a massive immunity run, but eh. I'm comfortable with my ~journey~ ending here. Was fun for the most part, but I can't really bring myself to care about ORGs right now, so...sorry. I did the decision I wanted and felt like doing.
Austin thinks they might vote Ed over me and apparently Yul wanted Ed gone first, but...eh, we'll see I guess. I'd rather go over Ed since he wants to be here, but if I push too hard they'll just think I have an idol and then vote Ed anyways, so I can't really do that. :/ Austin wants to pretend I have an idol by sending an oopsie “don't you think PG would be better to use it on?” or something message to somebody causing them to vote Ed, and if that does happen...it's at least not my fault and I won't have that guilt on me LOL. If I stay, I stay. I'll just keep giving immunities to Austin until they finally wise up and vote me out. If I go, oh well, I don't really mind, and I'm totally content with that.
Not much else to say I guess, so...see ya in Ponderosa? Bai friends <3
? I don't really mind going over them. I'd prefer it tbh. I'd rather go out on my own terms here.
) rnt u all so happy 
" What, you mean I would have gotten 6th place, which is what I was likely destined for if I DIDN'T give up immunity? WOW, WHAT AN IMPROVEMENT. Jesus. I don't think he even listened to a word he said. Whiny baby says what?
